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  • Writer's pictureBonnie Smith

Eye of the Storm

Good morning! So I feel like I have been caught in a tornado and am finally in the calm, eye of the storm. Even though the eye of the storm means your smack dab in the middle, it’s still good. It gives us the opportunity during the storms of life to get our footing on solid ground and eyes fixed firmly on Christ! The past year has felt like a storm for me with discovering I was going through early menopause and the panic it brought on because I have yet been allowed the blessing of having have a child. It has taken me all year to climb out of the ruble of that crumbling lifelong dream and finally settling into trusting God and His plans for me. Then another storm hits, my husbands neck surgery, 3 months off work, possibility of back surgery and 3 more months off work. Through that, I was still able to hold strong, trusting God to take care of us. That was until last week, when a big storm hit me out of nowhere. My doctor found several strange bumps that she decided to do a biopsy on and then getting the dreaded call that it’s precancerous, has spread and will require surgery and treatment. I thought I was grounded in trusting God until hearing those two words “Cancer and Treatment”! Fear, dread, anger and panic set in. It took me a couple of days to process it all and work through all the emotions I didn’t understand. One day in particular I thought I had convinced myself there was nothing to be afraid of. People have precancerous conditions all the time and are fine, so let it go. However, our subconscious seems to have a mind of its own and I kept going from being angry to needing to cry. I was like a mini twister out of control until my husband mentioned that maybe I should go spend some time with God. Which made me realize I had been avoiding Him like the plague. I still don’t fully understand why except that I was determined not to deal with it and not make a big deal out of it. So, when I got my coffee, Bible and Bible study workbook out I just sat there for a minute not knowing where to start in order to pull myself out of this pit I had fallen in. I decided to open my Bible to Psalms but still just stared down at the pages so I decided to just work on the Bible Study I was doing. I opened it to where I had left off and it started by having me read Psalm 49:15. I looked down at my Bible and discovered it was already opened to chapter 49 of Psalms! I closed my eyes and said “God, you are already here with me! Thank you for always being here!” He is always right there with us, no matter what we are going through. I didn’t have to go find Him or invite Him into my storm...He had been there the whole time. So I opened my eyes to read what He had to say to me in Psalm 49:15 “But as for me, God will redeem my life. He will snatch me from the power of the grave.” I was even more astonished! I had nothing to fear! It was the reminder that I needed, He has overcome the grave! None of us knows when our life here is over but as His child, I will never die! He delivers me from the dark pit of spiritual death and from the dark grave of emotional death (depression, fear and anxiety) and ultimately from the tomb of physical death, where one day I will be transferred from this feeble failing body to my glorious heavenly body in heaven! 2 Corinthians 5:1,3, 5, 7 "For we know that when this earthly tent we live in is taken down (that is, when we die and leave this earthly body), we will have a house in heaven, an eternal body made for us by God himself and not by human hands. For we will put on heavenly bodies; we will not be spirits without bodies. God himself has prepared us for this, and as a guarantee he has given us his Holy Spirit. For we live by believing and not by seeing." So even though I am in the middle of a storm that rages around me, I can remain in this peace and confidence as long as I keep my eyes on Him and trust He is still in control. He will be with me throughout the whole storm and beyond! “Then, when our dying bodies have been transformed into bodies that will never die, this Scripture will be fulfilled: “Death is swallowed up in victory. O death, where is your victory? O death, where is your sting? ” 1 Corinthians 15:53-55 “I am the resurrection and the life. Anyone who believes in me will live, even after dying. Everyone who lives in me and believes in me will never ever die.” John 11:25-26a “The Lord is my light and my salvation— so why should I be afraid? The Lord is my fortress, protecting me from danger, so why should I tremble?” Psalm 27:1 Whom Shall I Fear 🎼

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